He said I was too beautiful for him.
But really, he’s too everything for me.
My parents have had the worst marriage I have ever seen. There has been at least two affairs in between the two of them and threats of divorce every single year since I was 10. They have ran me and my siblings in the ground with their selfishness-as much as I love them, its true. I love them even more separately, away from each other. I had this fixed idea of what love was until I met Matt. Now, I see my parents and I am scared we will turn into them. I thought I wanted a wedding, thought I wanted the diamond ring, but no. I want a marriage that says I love you every single morning before the sunrises and every single night when the stars shine. I don’t want a fairytale, I want something real that my parents never had. My parents had the big extravaganza wedding and look at them. Eating each other alive.
I have decided to do things my way, uniquely our way.
I will wear a bright colored dress, he a bow tie. We’re going to court house with our best friends as witnesses. We will drink and eat until our bellies are full after an evening of laughter and love. And that ring I was stressing over just a few weeks ago, I don’t want it. I want an old fashioned pearl ring.
I want to start our love not engulfed with flashing how much money we don’t have, but in flashing it with the love we do have. Start it with memories of how wonderful that day was for US and not for those who do not even know what a marriage is anymore.
I am having the worst time with this patient. She is so hard to deal with. The first time we met, she was mad and she took her anger out on me. Why? because of what other nurses before me had “not” done for her. Okay, whatever. I fixed her problems, sent her on the right road. During this time she told me not to see her, but only on Mondays or Fridays. Well, I chose Fridays.
The following week, she gave me a list of things I needed to do. All of which I cannot do. I am a LVN, not an RN, nurse practitioner, physicians assistant, or doctor. I tried my best, but what she requested, only a doctor can give/do/refer. She was informed of this, but SHE thinks it is my JOB to get it done.
The week after that she said that the other nurses had quit taking care of her because she was “intimidating”. I did not say anything. She then accused ME of being intimidated. What I should have said is they all quit being her nurse because she’s mean, rude, and refuses to do anything for herself. A bully.
Okay, fast forward to the week after that one, we set up a time to visit. She gets mad because I tell her, “I want to see you in between 10-12? Is that okay with you?” She told me I need to tell her what time I will be there. Again, I can’t. I am a home health nurse. I can’t tell you Ill be there at 10 because an emergency with the previous patient might happen, I might get stuck in traffic, or like today, the big man in office might be in Town causing all road blocks to occur, putting you behind 2 hours! I went to her house after we agreed on a time, she wasnt there. I was there at 10.
Last week she asked me what I was good for. Apparently, a punching bag.
This week, she argues again on the time and then has the AUDACITY to ask me why I only go on Fridays! and not other days.
No other patient I see has problems with the way I do things. I see anywhere from 6-8 patients a day. Not one has argued with me over the time frame I use, the day I see them, or how I do my care regarding them. I see other patients every Friday also. When I call, and they cannot be seen on Friday, then we change it a day or two or next week. Im just tired of the drama. I wanna care for you, that is my job. My job title does not include baby-sitting, waitress, doctor, mechanic, cook, lawyer, plumber, electrician, etc. It’s NURSING.
Enjoying some park time with Lennon Daye.
So, new to Austin. Looking for people to hang out with, ideas on what to do, places to visit, etc. etc.
Who am I:
Ehh, almost 23 year old female who is an LVN currently working at a home health agency. I love elderly people. Speak fluent Spanish. I have two adorable dogs who will put your dogs to shame on cuteness. Love music of all kinds-with my guilty pleasures being TayTay Swift and Whitney Houston. Guilty pleasures being cue words. Automatic friends if you’re obsessed with Bob Dylan. I am so NEW to rock climbing, but my fiancé has been doing it for a few years, he is looking for rock climbing buddies! Since I suck. Love food (who doesn’t?!). Starting school *fingers crossed* in August. Lets see, moved here from San Antonio. The fiancé loves beer and I mean, LOVES beer enough that he brews his own. Love going to dog parks, love congress (south, that is), and hikes, and so much more. So, if you’re up for it, write me, ask me questions. No creepers please :) ideas for things to do here are very much welcomed.
“When my husband was dying, I said: ‘Moe, how am I supposed to live without you?’ He told me: ‘Take the love you have for me and spread it around.’”
Picture spamming because I haven’t in a while.